rockoncheese101

Obviously i have something incredibly wrong with me. Mike..you know i seriously thought he was just the nicest funniest guy ((evvverrr)). Well hes starting to make me feel like hes trash. Today during champions day i saw him like 10000 zillion times but he never once said hi. I was already mad at him cause supposedly hes been checking out a bunch of girls.I WAS UPSET.NICK IS MY BFFL.HE GIVES ME HUGS.MIKE SAW.SO WHAT YEAH I KNOW. So online he goes "look you dont want me checkin out hot girls && i dont want you huggin nick. i dont like that very much" then he goes onnnn and onnn and onnnnnnn about how nick only said that mike was doing all this stuff so that mike would be dumped and nick could get some. its so stupid. ughhh! anyways heres my myspace. www.myspace.com/mylifeindrama180 its on private so dont be a loser and think u,who doesnt even know me can be added as my friend. if ur my friend on here okay its cool. but i actually add people, and ONLY the people who r madd good friends with me. =] k so lettin u know.

Nick is obsessed w/ me. Craig and me are friends. I dumped charlie b4 christmas. He bought me a 300 dollar necklace that i didnt get. He gave it 2 his mom. Nick+kristen=ruined my life. Nick dumps kristen. Asked me out over 7 times. Gets annoying so bad. Snuck out w/ chrissy and britt. Grounded for a while. Hating my mommy but luv her. Nicks best friend is mike. Kristen has huge crush on mike && nick. Me and mike r now going out. =] School is almost over. Me and kayla= still bffls. Nick sorta hates mike now. But i sorta luv him <3. Grades are worsethan ever. Idc though. PacSun is better than A&F. Preps on here. GET.OVER.IT.KTHANKS. My life.Any questions? Well idc.

yeahh tan. =]

I will help you stand when you're down I will love you no matter what I say I will shower you with truth, weather it be good or bad I will make every kiss, like the first one I will make sure theres never a last one I will smile when I hear your voice I will tell you, loving me is your choice I will hug you for no reason at all I will catch you before you fall I will take time to listen to your words I will go anywhere with you, cut through the odds with swords I will give you hope when it all seems lost I will say right out, my love has no cost I will hold your hand when you feel broken I will let you touch me, for lust I give you this token I will try to stay strong when all seems so wrong I will wait for you here, no matter how long I will love you no matter what I will be your sunshine, theres not on "if,and,or but" I will be honest and let you know In my heart I will never let go

I feel so useless Im just dirt Lay the truth on me hard Make it hurt Hammer sweet nothings in my ear Tell me i need to grow up Make it clear Kiss me like its not wrong Whisper like its our song Pretend it doesnt matter I cant block it out I cant block you out How do i stay strong How can I stay strong Im broken And shattered I guess this never mattered Enough to you Nothing we go through can never mean just enough for you Why am I to much for you... Its abuse your dragging me through baby and I dont know if I can make it Im starting to think I cant take it heres my last hope You can use it or brake it No more false actions This is to real to fake it.

What is releife Is it physical Is it mental How do you take it in Are you forceful Are you gentle What does it take To make you realize You have to brake Can reliefe be coniving Is it like a snake Is it like a gun held straight to your head Your just waiting for the pulled trigger Or whatever I said Want me to relieve you Or would you rather be dead After its done Had I had my fun I thought you liked it too So what is relife Is it physical Is it mental Are you forceful Are you gentle

You violated my limits With you I always had to be defensive of my side You left me there by myself When I was hurt and cried You touched me how I hated Scared away who I dated said to suck it up Whining is over-rated You found a new girl Showed her off in my face Put anything that had to do with US On perminent erase You left her and took me back But didnt heal all these cuts Just made the pain worse Drove me crazy, drove me nuts You were like a sip of vodka One sip i was simply drunk You were like a ship with no sail One row and I was sunk You ruined what I had going for me You ruined all I had You ruined the moments I was proud You ruined the moments I was glad You touched me when I pushed away You were determined to screw me over every day You pointed out my problems You pointed out what I lack But its me whos ganna tell you I would still take you back.

So its done. This...this is done. All of those sharp painful feelings are suddenly able To fall apart && fall away You left her.Finally you left her. I cant belive you expected this from me I thought I made it clear That only when You forgot about her You werent aloud to remember me again Of coarse you did Now am I your baby? Now once again am I your slave? Will you ignore me again? If I refuse to 'behave' You can forgive && forget... But you cant erase regret You can wipe away the tears But you cant get back the days that felt like years You can say now we've evened the score But theres always ganna b more So many things you want to say But these feelings FADE AWAY.

ok..a lot of stuff has happened. let me sum it up. nick and kristen=in love ewwwwwwww. steve and natalie=finished yaaaaay. me and no 1=happening i have a crush so yea yay..he prob dun like me but hey whateverrr. report cards are comin soon again i like i have a C in math =(. wow oh well.so yeaaaaaaah alrighty. xoxo_alicia

Honesty, and honestly This was killing me inside Promised, and promises I bet you never knew how much I cried Over what happened Such a wreck Caught off guard How could I protect The heart that I held close to you dear. Its actually draining To feel this way To drown in your pain Everyday Wake up the same damn way...</3 How did I let you touch me How did I let myself touch you How did I let us end up like that && how much did I even put you through? Reality checks checking up on me Everytime I wake up to see Myself alone [[and picture frames turned around]] I remember when my biggest problem Was telling you slow down no rush to please me Am I stupid? Admit it im easy.

I used to light up your day. Now she does. I used to make you smile. Now she does. I used to make you laugh. Now she does. I used to make you say sorry. Now she does. I used to call you everyday. Now she does. I used to love the things you say. Now she does. I used to watch you never look at anyone else. Now she does. I used to hug you all day long. Now she does. I used to listen to our favorite song. Now she does. I used to kiss you with care. Now she does. I used to love you anywhere. Now she does. I used to get hugged from behind. Now she does. I used to hear "your always mine" Now she does. I used to think it would always be "us two" I know it,you know it. Shes just like me...but with you.

What am I loosing? Am I loosing myself once again? Theres less truth in what I am So whats there to defend? Smashing family Drifting friends The rules always changing Watch the twists and the bends She said so herself The girls own mother "that sweet part of you is falling away" and how "whats going on? what made you this way?" The stupid remarks From the kids at school They think that I care about what they say That doesnt make them cool Some glue and tape Will not erase my mistakes Will not get rid of the remainders of my heart The real nor the fake I cant tell what part of me is lying Or saying whats right Would you bet on me being this way forever? Or get back to it first thing tonight How can I posibally Feel so wrong Am I still standing here? For I feel completely gone

Forgive but dont forget With love comes an ocean of regret And everything you say Seemed to wash over me That day. Love others Love yourself No need to be anyone for anybody else Its okay to be what you want to be You shouldnt change your feelings for somebody Hate is 4 letters That will surely tare you limb from limb But is not feared To the worst of all the dim That word would be LOVE Now that will truely tare you apart Instead of killing your brain It tares a hole in your heart ♥ Instead of making you cry It will just make you numb Instead of making you say your feelings It wont let you know where the pain is coming from Instead of letting you vent your guts out It will make you hold it all inside Instead of letting you stay strong It will take away your pride Love will do that to you and more But most of all it will make you hate yourself More than you did before.

the poor guy OMG..i feel so bad 4 him omg =(

im pretty well off..im not into slicin the skin..so many kids do it in my school 2 "fit in" i dont think that makes u cool if ur doing it to "be cool" i think it makes u pathetic, there are smarter ways to deal with ur problems. There are more boys and girls that claim 2 have problems in my school like anorexia..way say ur that if ur not. Its not ganna make ppl think ur cool, its ganna make people think, damn their effed up. In short...if u cut, u could get hurt...try releasing ur stress some other way..its to dangerous =(