Some stuff I wrote that I recently found in one of my notebooks when looking for something. ------------------------ Childhood Of the things I have lost There is one thing I miss the most Something that cannot be regained So short and bittersweet To be able to look at a blade of grass And see not a chore - but a noise maker To be able to look at the clouds And not forsee rain - but a fairy dancing about To be able creep though a neighbours bush And not think about tresspassing - but a safari To be able watch ants marching in a line And not see a pest, - but an alien army The wonder of something never seen before The sweet innocence that makes the world seem brighter The vivid imagination that turns simple into wonderful The carefree self-absorbed mind set What is that I miss? I miss being a kid ----------------------------- I can see you when I close my eyes My memory recalls every possible detail to torture my heart and sanity Although it hurts I close them anyway I don't want to forget the lesson learned and the pain lets me know I'm alive ----------------------------- Senses A thud a crash Dust in the air Voices - Screaming Glass breaks and falls The scent of booze stains the air A thud a grunt A flash of pain Warm copper scarlet The room spins Black White The room tips Dry cotton bitterness a beep another another Grey Black White A voice an apology Fear disbelief pain Salty moisture and Booze scented breath beep beep beep A threat a thud Pain Black -------------------------- A conversation with a believer Do you believe in God? No, I replied. I do not belive in God. Do you believe in Heaven? No, I do not believe in Heaven Do you believe in Hell, surely you do? No, I do not believe in Hell either Do you believe in a Soul? No, I do not believe in Souls at all What do you believe in then, if anything? I believe in Honour Honour? Honour will not save your soul I don't believe in a soul, remember? What else do you believe in? Respect, and Loyalty You sound like a knight. Have you no faith? Faith? Describe it to me Believing in something no matter what Then yes, I have faith But you don't believe in God In order to have faith you must believe in God? Yes - Uh, no. No, you don't Anything else, so that I may go? How can you live like you do? This is living? Then I welcome death. God can save you! Just believe No.. nothing can. Do you truely believe that? Yes. I truely do. Then you are surely doomed to Hell I don't believe in Hell, if you recall You are beyond saving Yes, I know. ---------------------------