AnGeLiA

http://i28.photobucket.com/albums/c242/x0xFaNtAiSiEx0x/Picture9.jpg bad quality, but that happens to be the HOTTEST person on the planet. hehe. =]

you're such a talented poet... i wish i could write like that.

i got 8/10. thats pretty good i guess

i love amy lee! (not like that.. losers) i've loved evanescence's music for years and don't plan on not loving them! =)

Birthdate: December 20, 1991 U.S.: Michael Jackson ~ Black or White (ugh!) U.K.: Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody/These Are the Days of Our Lives (<3 Queen =D)

so what do you look for in a perfect friend? and if you wish, you can say what your perfect boyfriend/girlfriend is too. in a friend... preferrably a guy friend... guys usually don't start as much crap as a lot of girls do i'd rather for him to be a little older than me. guys my age (no offense to anyone who is) seem to still be a little immature. i'd like him to be very supportive and to give me advice when i need it, if possible NO BACK-STABBERS! and no talking behind my f'in back! and that's really all i want in a friend. i don't think its very much to ask for. in a boyfriend... to be decent looking. i mean, i go mostly for personality, but doesn't everyone want a decent looking person? i don't like red hair or brown eyes very much... so as far as hair and eyes go, anything but brown eyes and red hair.. i would appreciate if he took care of his teeth. being stuck up automatically turns me off. i don't like low self-esteem. i want him to commit to me and only me, bc i would commit to him and only to him. having separate friends, interests, and not spending every minute w/ me is important, believe it or not. don't call me every day. don't kiss me every 5 seconds. be supportive. be polite, when needed. yeah. thats a lot for a boyfriend, but you're pretty lucky if i like you (don't take that as being stuck up... but its the truth)

yes, wolfie comes stumbling onto mIRC onto linkline or webnet (idr) w/ the nick 'DacityDotCom' so that basically advertised his site to everyone. =) but of course he had to change it, bc that name was probably against the rules of the chat back then. as i said, i don't remember. then a while later he changes his name to Wolfie and tells everyone about his site and everyone comes and registers (including me) and yadda yadda... and that was probably the most stupid thing i have ever posted... =)

i'm sick of who i was. recently, i started being all fake when i began 8th grade. i wanted to hang w/ the popular ppl and i wanted everyone to know me in a good way. i didn't want ppl knowing me by embarrassing myself and stuff like that. so i started shopping at abercrombie, aeropostale, hollister, american eagle, etc. JUST so i'd look like a prep. yeah. then i started bein all stuck up and stuff. i didn't realize til later that i was being a stupid bitch. but i finally realized a month or two ago that i really should be me. i wasn't and never will be one of those seemingly perfect preps and i don't think i want to be. i still wear the preppy clothes, but i found out that i really do like those clothes. i even thought about wearing stuff from hot topic. why? bc i actually like it. i'm not doing it to fit in anymore, and i think that's what some ppl might not understand, bc a lot of ppl shop at the "prep stores" just to fit in and bc of peer pressure. for me, it's neither of those anymore.... and that's an improvement for me. i've even changed my tastes in music. back when i first started 8th grade, i was into everything that was hot. you know... kanye west, kelly clarkson, black eyed peas, the one-hit wonders, etc. i mean, i still like that music, but i enjoy 70s/80s/90s rock more now. ac/dc, guns n roses, van halen, ozzy osbourne, kiss, etc. is what i'm talking about. i mean, what girl says her favorite band is ac/dc or ozzy anymore? yeah i know a few. but think of how many girls say kelly clarkson or jesse mccartney "cuz he's hot". wtf? i think that's a bunch of bs... but the one thing that i can't seem to change about myself is worrying about what ppl think. i'm so terrified of ppl thinking i'm a nerd or that i'm an idiot, and i'm sick of it. but i can't seem to change it no matter how hard i try, and i don't know how to grow out of it. =\ but i like the new me better than the old me, and i plan to be this way for a while (except for the whole worrying-about-what-ppl-think issue)

i think this is the right forum for this, so i'll explain the title. i'm not sick of the forums, i'm sick of what i used to be... recently, i started being all fake when i began 8th grade. i wanted to hang w/ the popular ppl and i wanted everyone to know me in a good way. i didn't want ppl knowing me by embarrassing myself and stuff like that. so i started shopping at abercrombie, aeropostale, hollister, american eagle, etc. JUST so i'd look like a prep. yeah. then i started bein all stuck up and stuff. i didn't realize til later that i was being a stupid bitch. but i finally realized a month or two ago that i really should be me. i wasn't and never will be one of those seemingly perfect preps and i don't think i want to be. i still wear the preppy clothes, but i found out that i really do like those clothes. i even thought about wearing stuff from hot topic. why? bc i actually like it. i'm not doing it to fit in anymore, and i think that's what some ppl might not understand, bc a lot of ppl shop at the "prep stores" just to fit in and bc of peer pressure. for me, it's neither of those anymore.... and that's an improvement for me. i've even changed my tastes in music. back when i first started 8th grade, i was into everything that was hot. you know... kanye west, kelly clarkson, black eyed peas, the one-hit wonders, etc. i mean, i still like that music, but i enjoy 70s/80s/90s rock more now. ac/dc, guns n roses, van halen, ozzy osbourne, kiss, etc. is what i'm talking about. i mean, what girl says her favorite band is ac/dc or ozzy anymore? yeah i know a few. but think of how many girls say kelly clarkson or jesse mccartney "cuz he's hot". wtf? i think that's a bunch of bs... but the one thing that i can't seem to change about myself is worrying about what ppl think. i'm so terrified of ppl thinking i'm a nerd or that i'm an idiot, and i'm sick of it. but i can't seem to change it no matter how hard i try, and i don't know how to grow out of it. =\ but i like the new me better than the old me, and i plan to be this way for a while (except for the whole worrying-about-what-ppl-think issue)

today i'm going to my cousin's house and i'm gonna spend the night there, bc i'm sick of being around this apartment all day on the computer like i have no life, and having my dad complain to me about stupid crap. yep thats about it..

my #1 fear is talking to people. some people have actually called me anti-social bc of it. i'm so terrified of saying the wrong thing to people, i just don't talk. i've tried to get over it, but i can't seem to grow out of it. i've been this way for a few years. prolly since 6th grade. my #2 fear is having the people i care about leave me, especially if it was my mom or my cousin. i literally can't handle anything w/o them. my #3 fear is probably my dad. whenever he's home, i can't feel anything but aggravated, numb, or sad. i'm scared to walk in front of him w/o saying "why didn't u do this." and he can't really help me w/ my problems, especially guy problems. i mean, he IS a guy, i thought he would tell me what its like from a guy's point of view. instead, he just says "ur only 14, you don't know what love is" or that i'm too young to be "doing that crap". and i'm afraid of making mistakes, bc i always seem to do everything wrong. i mean, he doesn't physically abuse me. he would never lay a hand on me. and he'll buy me everything i can wish for, but other than that, idk about him anymore... were u expecting spiders, death, and heights? well of course i'm "scared" of spiders and heights (but i'm not afraid of death), but there's other things to be more afraid of.

i had a thought a few weeks ago. i want to lose my virginity to the person i love. and then... i really wouldn't care (unless they had a STD or something). its a weird view, but that's me.

god... that kind of shit is so sad =[

try this website. if it doesn't help u w/ anything, u can IM me or e-mail me bc i'll be here for u anytime u need me. =] ----------> resisting the urge to cut <--------

i agree 100% w/ u. if i have a bf, he's gonna have to have a pleasant face to look at. justin certainly didn't have the most pleasant face to look at. =X